Although I should have posted yesterday, I found myself wrapped up in reformatting my hard drive, no small task in itself.

I have decided to post here as often as possible in regard to my quitting smoking.  I am using this as a tool to hold myself accountable.  The support and encouragement will definitely help too!

I will go through each days thoughts, feelings, circumstances and how I succeeded or failed in keeping from smoking.

Yesterday:

I was very tired.  I stayed up way too late and didn’t sleep well anticipating the day without a cigarette.  I awoke and got ready for work in a hurry.  Jaden and I ran out the door ahead of schedule for the first time in a very long time.  I found myself reaching for a commit lozenge more often than I would a cigarette.  I was edgy, but not raging.

While working, I sustained my cravings throughout my shift with the lozenge and water.  I needed to water to coat my throat so I would be more able to speak as the lozenge does give me a bit of a sore throat.

I left work and picked Jaden up from the sitters after running a few errands.  We got home and life was good until I watched Rob smoke.  That’s when I caved and smoked.  The rest of the night was a flop as it was much easier to give into the cravings as opposed to fighting them with tools.

Being one person of a unit that is quitting is going to be more than a challenge.  I must focus on working through my cravings as opposed to giving in.  A discussion is in order with Rob tonight after I finally get home from working a double today.  I need the support and albeit, he can do as he pleases, I need him to be as encouraging as possible.

My hope is that today is a better day.  I will be at work for a long time today.  I will do all that I can to make it through the day without a cigarette, but it will be a definite challenge.  I’ll update again tonight or tomorrow.