There are these little moments that always seem to catch me totally off guard and remind me of how amazing life and living truly are. I’ve had more than my fair share of those moments in the past couple of weeks and through all of that; I’ve realized just how much I have in my life. We aren’t doing doing things every day and many times spend more time cooped up as a family together in our apartment; but it’s been those moments, the family moments together that have left me feeling so blessed.

What happens when you reach that moment when saying “I love you” no longer seems to justify all that you feel? Is that the moment when you realize you’ve found everything that you could ever want in that relationship? I’ve reached that point and when I those three words to Rob; they feel so unworthy of everything that I am saying. I have such a deep and incredible sense of love, caring, understanding, respect, honor and desire for an amazing future – together; every single time I say that.

There are moments when I’m sure that everything that we have will be disrupted by something in our lives; as that’s been the fantastic pattern in my life; however something is so different this time round and I haven’t been able to place it – perhaps it’s the way he gets angry when I’m obviously angry at him and I don’t want to talk about it right at that moment, maybe it’s the way he looks at me and I have to question exactly what is running through his mind at that moment in time – because I do, really, want to know. Whatever it is; the difference, between the relationship that we share and every person that has come into my life before I guess doesn’t matter. What matters is we are here and we are now.

I can honestly say that when we talked about getting married in the past and set a date; I was so scared, I didn’t want to make a mistake as I will only get married once in my life – and never want to go through a divorce. I questioned everything and actually felt quite disrupted to start. I never spoke to him – or anyone about those feelings and now; they appear to me as a childish way to get out of a commitment – the commitment I couldn’t dream of my life without now.

So there it is in a nutshell. I’ve finally reached the point where I have no doubts, no questions, and all the desire in the world to share all of my time, all of my life and build an amazing family with one man – the man who I love more than that single word could ever encompass in its meaning.