Written for the man I love.

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“I love you.” Those three little words mean so much more to me since you’ve come into my life. I have found myself, at times, so frightened by all that I have felt and the insecurity has prompted me to want to run, far away. You’ve been the stability I’ve needed and shown me that running away isn’t necessary, no matter how frightened I am by feeling vulnerable.

I have been so frightened by this relationship and even more so at the thought of spending my life with you. There has never been a single relationship in my entire life that has been good – truly healthy and wonderful. We’ve struggled and I’ve struggled. We’ve struggled with what used to be such an easy going and carefree relationship and how it has changed into something much more complex. The simplicity and enjoyment that we shared in those early days was phenomenal and it lead to something even better and bigger, but I truly don’t think that either of us expected to have the struggles in which we have shared.

Through it all, the one thing that has remained is so true in my own heart: The love that I have for you. As I’ve sat here and attempted to break it down, I find myself unable to find all the words I want to use that begin to touch the mountain of traits that leave me feeling butterflies in my stomach every time I look at you, feel your arms wrapped around me and each and every time I hear you say “I love you.”

You mean so very much to me. I haven’t been so great at showing you just what you mean to me over the past few months and I want you to know that even if I don’t acknowledge every action that you take or every motion that you make, I know they are there and it only strengthens and reaffirms all that I feel for you, Rob. You are an incredible person and even though you might be uncertain with who you are, what you like and your ultimate desires; I see that as an incredible journey that we, together, will be fortunate to embark. I want to show you things that you may never have thought you would like and see the reaction on your face when you discover something that sparks more than an interest; a passion within you. I want to be there through all of that and more. I love you and for the record, when I say “I love you,” what I’m saying is this and so much more:

I appreciate you for all that you are, all that you aren’t and all that you will become.
I respect you for the choices you’ve made and the actions you’ve taken.
I trust you with my life, the life of my son, and even more so, our future.
I need you without you and all that you encompass, my life seems almost insignificant.
I want you to be part of my dreams, my hopes, my desires; all of them.
I admire you for the honesty that you possess.
I enjoy you for all the laughter we share.
I desire you in every possible way a woman can, does and should.
I crave our moments where nothing else matters except the conversation at hand.
I thank you for your generosity of your time, building dreams and memories with me and for acknowledging who I am.

I love you.
Mysti