To the man I love so much,

The past weeks and even months have been extremely difficult, with the difficulty increasing over the past three or four weeks. We have struggled with the very essence of our relationship as I was far from the person to which you fell in love. I have struggled not being capable of providing everything that I have wanted to provide to our relationship, physically, financially and emotionally.

The Mysti that you met was full of life, ready to jump and face the world around her without batting an eye. I loved the world I had and loved every aspect of my life. I had great quality time with my son, an awesome job, even at times when it sucked royally. I was able to attain an income that many with college degrees don’t even achieve. It was the best of all worlds.

I came here and I lost sight of myself. I became overly bogged down with all the emotional baggage that I had found a way to suppress while in Rawlins. My life as I knew it was over and I couldn’t see through the pain I felt with such a sheer force to see the devastating effects it was having on our relationship. For that I am truly sorry.

I have, however, opted to deal with the issues from my past that have laid their mark upon our relationship as so they won’t be an issue that bogs us down in the future. If you have any doubts about the smile that so easily sees it’s way to my face, doubt no more. In the many keystrokes I have placed upon the keyboard in the past week, I have made them with the intent of letting go of all that weighed on my shoulders and heart. It is my desire for this relationship to be truly successful and last a lifetime that made that choice.

Life is still far from perfect and there are still hurdles left to cross, however, I’m willing to find ways to cross those hurdles so that you and I can get back all that we had and have more. I love you with all of my heart, Rob. You have made such an amazing impact on my life and I look forward to returning the same to you. You deserve nothing less than extraordinary and it’s my quest to give you nothing less.

Thank you for being the person that you are and giving me a push in the right direction.

I love you.
M