I have always been a woman who has fueled my future by the past I have lived. I have relied on all of those experiences to influence the life that is now. I have held onto emotions that didn’t need holding onto. This is my good-bye to all of that.

My childhood -

I was abused; physically, emotionally, mentally and sexually. I have fought certain aspects of myself all because my innocence was taken so prematurely and without my permission on any level. I have continued to be angered by the wrongs that were done to me and through this, have ruined many relationships by displacing the emotions I felt there on those who crossed my path. To those of you I have hurt, I am sorry. To the past that has haunted me, impacted my life and the lives of others; good-bye.

My Teenage Years -

What teenager doesn’t go through their own self evaluation and self-discovery? Mine lead me to a choice that hurt one person and I served the time for it. I had that held against me time and time again, especially by an ex who had no right to do that. I allowed that choice to be part of who I was, and I am not that person. My forgiveness is asked and to once allowing a choice I made to define the person that I am; good-bye.

The early adulthood -

The first and most difficult impact made in my early adulthood was the birth and death of my son, Mathew Reiley White. I have been defined more by that one experience in my life than by any other. The pain I have felt has been so real, so deep and beyond intense. I, at one point, attempted suicide because the pain I felt was so great. I hurt so many through my own emotional instability throughout that entire time in my life. I am sorry for hurting you – for hurting myself and most of all, I am sorry for not letting go in the way that I should have. To my son, my forever angel, I will always love you, but at this point am letting you go – allowing myself the opportunity to grow into this life I have found. Thank you for saving me and changing me. Good-bye my son.

The relationships -

I have had too many relationships in my life to count. Some ended for one reason or another, but ultimately, there were many problems as a result of my past. To those of you who were hurt in any way, I send out my deepest apologies. To those of you who hurt me, you are forgiven. To the past relationships that once encompassed my life; good-bye.

My resolution -

The new year has brought with it so many opportunities. As part of my resolve to ensure that 2007 is filled with much happiness, I have truly begun the process of letting go and moving forward. With my welcomes for the present and future, I say good-bye to the past.

Mysti Linne